_{i just keep thinking of nesta at these events in the night court after she’s faced her ptsd, anxiety, and depression. imagine her learning all these customs that she couldn’t learn before when she was grappling with her mental health, and her making these traditions that she’ll begin to carry out. her first starfall with cassian, where she lingers on the outskirts of the events because she wants to watch rather than take place, and then the awe that overcomes her when she sees the stars fill the sky. her learning illyrian customs as well as those that are seen as standard in velaris, and her just drinking in all this information eagerly because nesta devours knowledge the way a scholar would. i just want to see nesta archeron happy, enveloped in this world that she has learned to accept, and healing with those that she loves by her side. i want her to know that she is not responsible for what has befallen her and her family, and that everything will be okay. i want her to be happy. :’(}

_{facts that the acotar fandom blatantly overlooks:}

• _{lucien is as much a victim of trauma as feyre is. lucien suffered from abuse from both his family and tamlin. lucien was not entirely silent regarding feyre’s treatment from tamlin either. he did all that he could, but he was also abused by tamlin.} 
• _{tamlin is not inherently evil, he is a victim of his circumstances. this does not excuse his behavior, but this allows insight on his character. he is flawed, he has done horrible actions, but each one stems from his way of thinking. he lost his parents, brothers, and inherited a position he did not want. his family attempted to kill what was one of his friends, and was then killed by his friend. his relationship with feyre also did not change. in acomaf he was likely similar to acotar; he was still protecting feyre. the issue is, it was heightened by trauma from under the mountain on his end. on feyre’s end, her trauma was neglected and ignored by him. sarah j maas did not elaborate on this further.}
• _{elain is not meek, she is not delicate, nor is she “boring”. elain killed the king of hybern in a war she did not want to partake in let alone attend. elain made an attempt as seen in acofas to push past her trauma, despite it being repression and unhealthy. she also stole from feyre’s purse before, pre-acotar. she simply has not been given enough page time, and is also viewed from feyre’s perspective. first person bias is real and evident with feyre’s perception of endless characters.}
• _{nesta archeron is not a bitch, nor is she “playing games” with cassian. she has undergone sexual assault, a transformation into a body that is not hers, has lost her father, did not entirely heal from the loss of her mother, and the loss of her human life. she is not a bitch, she is completely broken mentally and requires help.} 
• _{rhysand’s perception of nesta is understandable. this does not excuse his behavior. he has not grown alongside nesta so he does not know her the way feyre does. all he knows is that she treated feyre cruelly. he is unaware that both feyre and nesta have shared an equally flawed and somewhat toxic relationship, as stated in acotar. all he knows is that she mistreated his mate and that one of his closest friends is in love with her, and he does not understand why, not when he does not understand her as an individual.}
• _{feyre is also flawed, she is not above criticism. this is very clear within all three books. she is not a bad character, however. all characters within this book series are morally “grey”, and quite honestly, have not been given the clear development they deserved.}

_{“i did not want to lose you, nesta archeron,” continues cassian, his voice rough. “i did not want to push you away, to break whatever tentative bond had been between us. i did not know if you felt it too. but when you covered my body with yours… i thought then that you were aware, and that you did not want to lose me. for the first time in five hundred years, i felt as if i were full. it did not matter to me that death had come to collect us, to take us to a realm that we have not seen; all i could think of was that i had found my mate, and she had found me. she had accepted me.”}

_{nessian oneshot: cassian confronts nesta after a brutal fight in the illyrian steppes where it was revealed that cassian withheld knowing the two were mates. the two speak for the first time after that, and nesta accepts the bond.}

_{this is part one.} 

_{part two will be released relatively soon.}

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